我的心很痛。 我一直控制不了, 一想就哭得很惨,眼泪一直不停的流。 为什么我对他的好却换来的是伤痛,悲伤。 难到他就不能理解我的感受吗。
To the one who matters most to me,
I thought we had it all, but I guess I was wrong.
I thought our friendship was strong enough, but I guess I was wrong.
I thought we’ll be there for each other always, but I guess I was wrong.
I thought we shared a special love/feeling that will never be replaced, but I guess I was wrong.
Today, you made me realize so much, everything that I never knew.
I finally saw how selfish love could be, how much love could change a person.
Love ruins people, even the person closest to you at one point of time in life.
Humans are selfish by nature, but love made us even more selfish than we were.
I know I am at fault too, but so are you, because you weren’t being fair.
If you think it’s worth it to lose it all because of this/because of her…
Then I will leave, I will give you up, I will stop trying to be there for you anymore.
Because I am not needed, because I am not the girl in your heart, because I am not worth it.
If you feel that I am a threat to your love life, then I will back off/back out from your life.
All these years, all these months, I have no regrets knowing you, never once.
All I wanted was just to be there for you, a promise I set for myself since 5 years ago.
A promise that I have kept, always being there for you whenever you need me.
Never once had I broken my promise except the times you left me or you pushed me away.
This time it’s the same, you made you stand, you made your choice.
You clearly showed me what you wanted, you wanted it to end, you wanted to leave.
So I will go, I will go away from you, from your life, I won’t bother you anymore.
But you do know that if one day you need me, I will still be here for you my dear.
It pains me to know that this time we lose it all, we will never be the same again.
Tears falling uncontrollably as I am typing my feelings out in this passage to you.
Because I don’t think you realize just how much you mean to me all these while.
You don’t know how important you are and how special you are to me and in my life.
I just hope, one day, you will find a girl who would love you as much as I do.
Sorry and I love you.