by Thought Catalog

I think the worst part of it is that it’s all driven by fear. A constant, underlying fear in everything I do. Failure. The Unknown. Being alone. Perhaps most of all the fear of waking up in 20 years time and realizing it all wasn’t worth it. Realising I should have done something else. Realizing I should have loved someone else. Realising all the time and opportunity I wasted. And that is what is truly terrifying.

And it is this that holds me back.

Stop terrifying myself so much with the idea of the future that I’m too afraid to take action in the present. Stop questioning myself so much and give my maimed self-confidence enough time to heal and repair.

I’m capable of great things and I know I am. And so are you. It’s just about belief. And we’ll get there, no fear.

Thought Catalog

I find myself in a constant state of confusion. I feel happy, content with my life but every day I wake into the light of the morning sun questioning everything. I know questioning things is good, yet I can’t help but wonder if it ever holds me back? Does all this analysis lead to paralysis? I question not only question everything around me but perhaps, most importantly, myself. That can’t be good can it? Or is it? Or am I just over thinking?

These are questions I find myself asking on a daily basis:

  • Am I supposed to know what I want to do by now?
  • If so, am I supposed to know how to do it?
  • If not, will I need to find out soon?
  • How do I find out?
  • Do I want you?
  • Do I want anyone?
  • Do I just want wine and chocolate?
  • Am I supposed to find things…

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